Maybe I shouldn't admit this (at the risk that my husband might actually read my blog, lol), but there has been more than one occasion in the last two weeks where my scattered brain should've brought catastrophy. I took off my wedding bands for the first time in almost a year this morning for a good cleaning, and forgot to put them back on. Tucker found them later in the bathroom. Just tonight, I left a pot of water on the stove to boil, and came back a good while later to find it completely empty (all the water burned off) - I had totally forgotten about it!
Everyone has some things about themselves that they wish could be overcome or - better yet - hidden from the eyes of others. :) And if I were to be completely raw here, I'd confess that a 'scattered brain' is nothing compared to my list of flaws and failures. I'm much more mortified with the idea of someone else having a grasp on how selfish I really am, how prideful and defensive I can be, and how down right moody I can be, too! HA!
That's why one small verse in 2 Corinthians 12 stops me dead in my tracks... "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Weakness? He used that ugly word!!! I don't want to acknowledge weaknesses about myself TO MYSELF, much less other people! And even though I know God knows all things, it still sometimes makes me cringe to realize that God knows me so intimately... He knows every inch, every thought... He knows every word and action that I said and did -AND- every word and action that I thought about but didn't follow through with. :)
But tonight was such a great example to me of God's faithfulness as in this verse... HE protected me! He prevented my kitchen from catching on fire! My 'weakness' became an opportunity for God to be seen without me muddling it up. I was able to see God's protection and provision DESPITE my mess up. :) If I had pushed through processing and reflecting on the moment in order to quickly forget it and 'move on', I would've missed capturing how God was able to shine through.
A question now pops into my heart - okay, so God can shine through in the midst of my scatteredness... AND I believe and trust that He can take a tough situation and turn it around. BUT how can He make something beautiful in the midst of my battle against pride, or in the middle of my selfishness?
I don't have answers to those questions, I'm just putting it out there. Somewhere deep within I'm breathing a sigh of relief. Though I have no idea what and how God'll do what He does, there's a sense of peace in trusting that His process brings about beauty that could never be matched by my best efforts.
...being made perfect in weakness. That gives me a lot to think about.
What do YOU think?
'night!
Rebecca
It's when we step aside that He truly shines. Whether it is in our obvious weakness or our intended humility, He shines. Recognizing Him in it is key!
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing your inner thoughts I can identify with and am encouraged by so much of what you said. And all to often I can say, God has stopped my kitchen from catching on fire! LOL
ReplyDeleteOh what the walls could say....but those are the moments when God's mercy and grace step in and I know I can still run crying Abba Father and hide, like a 4 year old behind her mother, in the loving embrace of my Daddy.
You are truly a blessed to be a blessing Rebecca and I am privileged to know you.
Kathy Cooley